I’ve been texting with the X a little bit, and one of the main problems was that she doesn’t see me having real life goals, and she doesn’t see me achieving happiness. I get it, I saw it in a movie. how can I love if I don’t love myself etc.
It’s hard. Call it laziness, call it moral issues, call it whatever you want. But I can’t see myself working for the man again. Many people’s dream is to own their own business. I can’t really see it happening in my lifetime. It takes money, savings. Then it takes the gamble. What’s the difference between gambling on purchasing a Subway shop for 100K or putting that 100K worth of chips on Red?
I’m really happy that I’ve restarted dialog with somebody that truly cares for me. Besides the select few of you of course, but I’m talking like, real live person. It's not money, or things, or places that make life worth living. It's the good people in your life.
I've been living in my car for the last few months after losing her. I’ve set a goal to be able to comfortably rent a room on the outskirts of LA by Dec. or Jan. Kind of my personal New years goal. It's not the end of the world if I accomplish it